The paperwork is done and in the mail. Today the mail person will pick it up and take it away. Sean’s fingerprints are still MIA. I’m a little upset about that because I keep telling them we can just go get them done again and they keep insisting that we don’t. I was told that it can take 5-10 days to process. This if they don’t have to send them to the FBI. Then it will take longer.
Part of me wants to strangle these people and say HELLO??? Do you know how long that is?? Do you know how long they’ve been separated? Do you know it’s a bad situation?? Each day makes it worse…
It wouldn’t be as bad if all the kids were in good homes but they aren’t. That’s what makes it worse.
That and the fact that I know these people are really working for us out here in NM. I know this is going a lot faster than most and I feel like I should push and I also feel like I shouldn’t. I know in my heart that these people are really pushing this. I know they are working hard and trying to get this completed. I don’t want to upset anyone or belittle what a tremendous job they are doing out here.
But in the back of my mind, I hear my mom’s voice and I know my past of letting things go and it’s just so important this time. All I can do is listen to my inner voice and trust that it will make the right decisions even if my mom wouldn’t agree with that. I guess in my mind there is a difference between the squeaky wheel and a broken wheel. I don’t want to push my luck and I don’t feel a pressing to push just yet. It’s in God’s hands and I know I have to meet him at least half way. But I guess at this point it’s a matter of quieting my mom’s voice in my head. (I hope this makes sense and I’m not coming off as crazy)
I just got a call from the homestudy lady…they found Sean’s prints they are on the way to the place to be analyzed. The lady said all she needs is our paperwork and in the meantime she is going to just submit that the first were sent back because of Sean’s condition and that the second are in process. She said they would accept that.
*phew* Thank you God. Here I was struggling with all this and feeling just awful about the prints and not knowing what to do and he drops the answer at my feet and reassures me I’ve been doing the right things this far. The wheels are rolling… this is the first step, to hear back from the homestudy lady, the fingerprint lady promised me she would call me when she recieved them, so that’s the second in a line of events that have been set up by me so that I can make sure things are going right. I should also hear from the homestudy lady again, as I put a note in for her to call me to confirm she’s received the paperwork. If I don’t hear from the fingerprint lady, I am calling her Wednesday. At that point, if she hasn’t recieved them, she can at least look them up and tell me if someone else is processing them. We appear to be on track again.
I am still praying for the end of this month beginning of next month. It seems so short and so long. But so right. It’s in my heart and I know I shouldn’t doubt but it’s still there.
